Others in a worse position!
Just wanted to have a quick moan as I’m really cheesed off today….
This is the one place to have a moan cos here everyone understands the feelings.I know there a others in a worse position but it doesn’t stop it being a big deal for you.
I’ve felt so tired the last few days, even sleeping for 2/3 hours at night , and having a 1 1/2 hour snooze in the afternoon doesn’t help…..every bone in my body aches, my neck aches,.if I sit down I suddenly nod off…… to be woken by pain ….. delightful. I go to bed late but wake at 5am, then go back to sleep for a few hours. There are loads of things I should be doing and could be doing, but I don’t….the weather has been good, but I can’t be bothered to get on with,I … but I’m fed up - I want to sleep and wake up to find the last month has been a bad dream and if I can’t have that I want this all over and done with. I want my life back!! I’m fed up with being tired, with having to read everything three to four times before my brain takes it in.
seem to have lost all my motivation.
I know this too …
You have the power and strength within you to make changes to your life and any aspect of your life you are unhappy about - you can start by making a list of anything you want to change and work out what you can do to actively make changes in your life. You can choose to stay where you are in your unhappiness or you can choose to try and do something to change your situation for yourself.
nobody is perfect, everyone messes up sometimes, everyone does things they wish they hadn’t done, everyone makes mistakes - that is being human’!
and I’m just so cheesed off it with all.
But I hate being stuck in the house not having the energy to do anything, mind you I’m so stubborn usually I do things anyway, but not the last few days….Up till now I’ve had a few bad days, but this is a right pain in the you know what…!
I’ve had it with being "sick" and just want to get back to normal,(never thought I’d say that!)..
(a bit depressed) can you tell?.
I know…… Being fed up with circumstances is a good healthy reaction but when you pause and reflect on the good things, life isn’t so bad, Life is really only as bad as we make it and if you’re given lemons, make lemonade.
Refuse to let problems control you or your emotions. Disregard the factors you have no control over and focus on what you can influence.Yes have to do that.
Every night write down a few things you are grateful for.
Take one step at a time.
Thanks all 
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Yes have and must do that.
everything you have written here is ok to feel. the being fed up with your pains and fed up with life as is right now for you is ok to feel. the feeling yucky yet telling yourself all the so call ‘right stuff’ is normal too. that back and forth between how you think ‘you should be feeling and doing’ to what you are really feeling and doing is okay too.
take an inventory to what you can do, what you actually feel, what you want, what you need and what you wish for and that is exactly where you are suppossed to be at and feel for now. it is all part of the healing process. it is a journey that no ones asks for but are given as a cross to bear and the why’s are only Gods’.
why must you too feel this anguish and exasperation and struggle and pain i don’t know. but regardless of how much you don’t think you can do this and go through this you can for it was ‘given to you’ by the Only One who knows it all. God.
so you can, one step at a time, one sleep at a time, one hour, one minute, one second at a time. one emotion and one tear and anger at a time. one afternoon of doing nothing at a time and one evening of wishing for all at a time.
until, the steps are such that you can all of a sudden see that you have moved up from where you started off without even knowing you had moved at all.
it will happen. because life, in the ugly and the hard is where we learn our lessons and it, life, always moves foward, even when we can’t see it at first.
when your mind can’t stand the slowness of the progress and all you can see is that nothing has change and it hurts and all seems bleak JUST BREATHE.
i’m not kidding, just breath and keep on breathing, and in just doing that you are fighting and hanging on and going forth and trying your best and giving it your all.
concentrate on your breathing, i have learned this in counselling. take the time to feel your chest rise and fall in breaths. hear it.
send you an email.
much love and hugs and best wishes.
Comment by louisiana (chana) — April 2, 2009 @ 1:26 am
Thank you for your visit to my blog. I am so sorry to read about your accident, and how it has affected your life. I understand some of what you are feeling, and the focus on getting better, on being tired of being tired.
I had brain surgery in September, and am still in the process of recovering my energy. Perhaps nothing will ever be the same for you - but that is not necessarily a bad thing - it is just different. If you look at how far you have come since the accident, you will see vast improvement, and you will know that you are on your way to your new life. I pray that today is a good day for you - and that you will experience less pain and more healing than yesterday.
Comment by Joanne — April 2, 2009 @ 1:47 pm
Hi! I’m just blogwalking.. nice blog, hope you visit me back.. Have a great day!
Comment by Nurta San — April 3, 2009 @ 5:47 am
I’m sorry for what you’ve been going through but as a human being, its normal to feel down and demotivated once in a while, but don’t let the situation takes control and throw you deep into stress. Its great that you had in mind that others are in worse position, and I’m very glad too that you ended your post positively. The important thing is we must know that we will bounce back after feeling down in the dumps. I very much hope and pray that you’ll get through this safe and sound. Until then, take care and have enough rest.
Comment by zunnur — April 7, 2009 @ 10:56 am
I am sorry to here about your accident. I can say what you are feeling is normal. Just keep a positive attitude and things will get better. I know that is easier said than done. Praying that you have a full recovery soon.
Comment by Chet — April 9, 2009 @ 1:48 pm
i hope you’re okay already
Comment by tin-tin — April 21, 2009 @ 2:23 pm